Perfection is real

1. Thinness
2. Dedication
3. Quietness

Nihilistic mystic

1. Existentialistic and random skits/musings to yourself
2. Avoidance of people
3. Coffee & cheap vodka
4. Thinking of big cocks
5. Being thin

Things could be worse...but

Just because your car has an engine,breaks,etc and still functions doesn't mean you can ignore the fact it feels like it could fall apart at any minute.I don't drive nor do i have a car or know about them...But just because most of the essential parts work doesn't mean you ignore the fact it stalls every once in a while or you havea flat tire or the heater blows cold... Optimists can fuck themselves..This life doesn't seem to have a light at the end of the tunnel nor does any suggested rhyme or reasons suffice as an explanation or excuse for existence

Existence is futile

Hi,boss what are today's operations of futility? The shelves will be empty somewhere,the trash will be full at least in one can,carts will always need brought in,and my brain cells will die.

Enjoy what you can.Waking up,just to eventually go back to sleep.Pulling in carts at grocery store just for more to come out. Washing the dishes and clothes just to do it again.To me if a god exists, it's either sadistic or incompetent possibly both.You come into the world screaming and crying. Dumb ass teens brag about "stretching her out" as if their dicks could really do that. I hate people and it's gonna be rough continuing..I have nothing to look forward to. Work is ok,but retail is rough because you see everyone including the bitch of a cunt who lives across from you. I try to be positive keep my bitching to a miminum. But it doesn't work. It's all an operation of futility and I wont lie to myself for the sake of optimism.If there was evidence it's gonna work out or mean something in the end I'd act accordingly.No such evidence exists, quite opposite of a meaning appearing out of all this.

Plus the corporate expectations are so high that they easily put mine to shame.(During my episodes of irritability and not rationality.Sometimes i can acknowledge.It could be worse,but also that doestn't make it less bad or make me feel much better because my tolerance for bull shit is low.) As Kroger employee 92121,just keep the checks coming and ill clean your asylum,stock your shelves,ill bag your groceries,and push your carts.But i won't do it with a smile..I hardly can get myself to do much else including eating on my breaks.