My impulsive thoughts and such are shared..None of this website should be taken too seriously.As some are examples of what my brain might tell me.. "Kidnap that kid" as I'm walking...Like no? I don't want tk hurt anyone damn it..I saw a boy,possibly mentally handicappdd (idk) I saw him walking home from work in the dark on The road!!!! Using some device a tablet or something... I tried to tell him I wouldnt walknin the road like that....He said he didnt care his parents left him home alone and he was going home..I think it was the same kid pushing his bike without shoes up or down the hill on the road....I am not a babysitter..I hate situations like this because I dont know what to do.Im concerned that I will be accused of being a predator if I even talk to a child..I was close to him or anything either but I felt creepy because it was dark and we walked in the same direction..He kept looking back...He was probably creeped out I wasnt trying to be creepy.If I were I'd wear a halloween mask and literally stalk people on purpose....:/ I try to be quiet as possible...but than people dont hear you coming..But If you are talkative and shit you will be labelled obnoxious...Last thing....Life is meaningless..Wear dresses,suck a big cock,and fuck yourself....I have free amazon prime....Maybe if I get a computer/laptop I will pay for a membership on here and actually dedicate myself to html/css and beyond....
She is too young for me,and out of my league by far...But I find her to be inspiriational..Maybe because I wanna be like her...and not to be with her necessarily..She does her job...And I mean fuck she is between cashiering and being the service desk person....That is a level of fearlessness or something...I will hope to never have to give kroger...People are shit and while most customers are fine..I cant imagine dealing with them 4 hours,4 minutes even..Let alone 8 hours like she does...And who knows she might actually be 18 even worse...It makes me a pedophile right? I thought of her in that way like a sick twisted pervert.. And I adore her... But I'm basically Ed Gein right? The creepy skin suit guy...Wooo baby I wanna cut your nipples off and glue them to my forehead...I'm Jeffrey Dahmer because I admire a younger girl..She is a woman..but almost a child..Like she drives and I dont lol But I mean fuck...I'm a loser... Anyway Basically Ted Bundy so report me because I even thought of someone like that I should be labelled pedophile and slaughtered. The standards are if you even look at someone like that...and the age gape is wide than yeah you are gonna need to be put down. Society wants justice...I say kill everyone who has mastubated,thought of anything beyond pure thoughts,and everyone who eats lol...Fuck you all....I love pussy....Fuck you all I love cock...Am I gay? Am I lesbian? Am I bisexual? Am I tranny? I don't know ..Maybe I'm something called human? ever hear of it?
The worst part is the pay card might actually be a fucking scam...But besides that a lot of customers are relatively kind or neutral. Some of my co-workers are too social for my liking..I am sorry Kendra I don't care you have a nike Kroger shirt..I hate nike and Kroger both..In fact I'm sorry to all of them who think I'm a man :/. I want to be one of the girls,plus I'd feel less creepy.When baggy I walked behind Becca so obviously I am a pervert right? Sometimes I look at someone's rear end...In fact I don't discriminate. Almost like I'm not looking for that reason but because when people walk away that is what is your vision. But again if I even get remotely horny or something while home..I am a rapist pervert..I am basically jeffrey dahmer.. If I have any violent thoughts at all I'm ted bundy so I should turn myself in. The reason I didnt tell my therapist or anyone else all my thoughts is because I know they aren't meaningful.To me if if I started having plans to do things I'd be concerned..But just to think "my dog is gonna get hit by a car" or something. To think "kidnap those kids over there" while walking.. It's even less rational because 1.I'd have to feel no fear or suspicionn 2.I find kids annoying and most importantly I wouldnt kidnap anyone!!!! But because I walked where children happen to be I'm a pedophiliac kidnapper.. Also teenagers walking front of me sometimes..I'm following them like a perv right? It's not because we happen to be going in the same direction..Itake different routes when applicable.But work is a plaza I'm not walking around the building or in the parking lot just to avoid thinking these thoughts.The thoughts don't have much power..I just ignore them.Laugh them offf.Sometimes agree sarcastically.."Like yes of course.. I am responsible for all bad things that happen to anyone and everyone"