I have nothing to live for

There is no real reason to continue.

One of my zines(pdf)

I am an useless scumbag

I am not only a scumbag but worse. I'm a liar.I can't handle the truth.I ruin even I touch.

I keep eating. I'm trying to lose weight

I am one hundred and sixty five pounds.I wanna lose like twenty to thirty pounds.Get me down to about one hundred and thirty five.I just keep eating and eating and eating.And what I eat isn't low calorie.Nor is it filling.